Do you not think that the fact you're talking to her and how you've been doing worse and worse correlate at all?

Do you tell yourself no it's uni? No it's family? It's life, it's religion, it's friends, it's my surroundings, its the shit place I'm in, it's the shit stage I'm in. It's also her. I can see that it's her.

Did you forget the constant anxiety, did you forget the neglect and the hurt? Was all the pain of healing that cheap for you, was the price you paid that low that you toss away all your effort without thinking about it?

I remember at the beginning you told me "no she isn't part of my life", funny huh, now you can't say that, now she's a daily thing, a thing that happens without your care, now she's a thing. Do you not think that every day you talk to her all the time your wounds spent closing is wasted once and again, do you not care that you're not only undoing all your progress by the day but worse than that you're adding to the time you're gonna spend healing once you wake up and decide you wanna stop neglecting yourself. I am perplexed. I really want to tell you that I failed you, that I failed to stop you, but that's a lie, I'm sorry to be the one telling you this but you failed yourself because none other than you fully knows and understands how hard it was, and the price you had to pay, the pain you had to feel just to stop talking and get away from her, and the fact you allowed yourself not only to go back but to talk daily now disgusts me, and the sad reality that it doesn't disgust you, sadness me. Now you're having mood swings huh? Funny how things develop around the people experiencing them yet they are completely blind to what's happening around them due to the simple fact of them being the one going through them. Step out of yourself for a good minute and think about the full picture, take a step back and reflect on everything that happened from your point of view and try to see it from the other's too, remember it all from beginning to.....now.....the beginning again? How depressing.

I am really tired, not from you. From everyone and I want to be alone.