I'm coming home. I'm coming home. I'm coming home.

I've been away from you guys for so long. I'm not sure if there was any other way, but I feel it needed to be done.

It's been a hell of a ride and I've learned so much about myself. I'm a good man. I'm smart, funny, caring, generous, and I know how to love.

I took all these thing for granted.

Why?

Because I so desperately wanted a companion to confirm all these attributes about myself.

Truth is:

I needed to confirm all these things about myself, no one else.

I had all I needed in front of me the whole time.

I never meant to hurt anyone, especially myself.

I'm sorry and eternally grateful for all your support.

I want to be a more productive member of this family.

I miss all of you.

My Biggest Regret:

Not living up to my potential.

I hated staying at that job for so long, it ate away at my soul. I hated every relationship going to shit from choosing the wrong people. It wasn't my fault they treated me so horribly. I stayed well past due because I just finally wanted something to work for once. I don't regret the moments of happiness, but the constant need to see past the faults is a price I paid dearly.

I'm tired of the need to self-destruct after the walls cave. I have been through real trauma and need to be kinder to myself. I don't need to hold onto every traumatic moment like a gigantic weight waiting for the last link to shackle myself in place. This will take some work. But, I've made progress.

The pandemic made me feel quite lonely and it's been torture watching physical ailments decay the ones I love.

I don't feel stuck anymore.

Through and through what hasn't been killed through it all is my sense of humor and my passion for knowledge.

The stage is set and Friday I will be coming home.

I'm coming home I'm coming home I'm coming home

Mama, I'm coming home.

See you guys real soon