If you ever come across this, then read the whole thing and don’t get stuck at the beginning of this where I say this: I wish that I could kiss you in a field full of beautiful daisy’s on a warm summer day with the breeze running through your curls and that you’d smile and blush the way you do about things that make you happy. It would be my first and only kiss with another woman and I’d be perfectly fine with this. I know that those soft lipped kisses will never happen, but when the sun hits your face and you glow and those beautiful freckles shine like gold specks in the sunset... it’s hard not to dream about it.

Despite the beginning of this letter, my main goal is to remind you that you’re such a beautiful person inside and out and I often think of you as a wildflower and have mentioned it before to you when you’re feeling bad. Your fire and passion for living your natural self is powerful and against the rest of the world. Despite all the world wanting to change aspects of you who are Youve fought to stay authentic. I know how badly you want children. So often when I have my visions I see you with little children around you and you’re just beaming and they’re so healthy and beautiful. They’re your pride and joy and I know it will happen and the vision will be true and you will be one of the most powerful mamas out there. I believe you can do anything you set your mind to. When you talk about your bad times I often imagine you as feeling like Te Fiti in Moana. You feel someone’s stolen your heart and you need that back. People have treated you badly which is why things get crazy for you. I know I felt that when your ex I was trying to beat and break you down mentally. He never deserved you ever. You were worried about not being good enough for him when you were really just too good for him. He still manages to linger with traces of control hanging in the air when you mention you can’t sleep well...or that he wakes up screaming at you because of you doing something naturally human. You’re the Diamond and he keeps trying to cover you up and cut away at you and it’s infuriating. I hope he leaves soon!

But...

I just want you to know that I won’t let my never ending crush on your beautiful soul stop me from being your good friend and person you can rely on. Even if I do wish that I could hold your hand and walk through that field and hold you close. That’s just how spiritual of a connection I feel to you. You are definitely one of a kind and rare in this world.

P.S. Also Sorry it took me so long to get to my point but my dreams and thoughts often get in the way of my intention.