Hey, Babe.

Tonight’s Mac and cheese night. We decided to upgrade the comfort food by adding applewood smoke bacon, your favorite. You were playing video games with your friends when I told you I’d start getting the materials out.

While you played video games.

I went to the kitchen to get the pot, elbow pasta, bacon, knife, ladle, etc. We had plans to cook together and I dolled myself up for the occasion. Our own little date night. I got out the materials and waited for you.

While you played video games.

Some time has passed and I figured you lost track of time. I went upstairs and went into our room. Told you the water was boiled. You happily took off your headset and ran downstairs. We got things ready. Put the elbow pasta in. Thawing the bacon. I felt so happy that we were spending quality time together. But you were on your phone. Watching anime clips, going through memes, texting your friends that you’d be right back for the next round. I can tell you weren’t interested.

I ask if you wanted to go back upstairs. You asked if I was sure. I told you it was your choice, silently hoping you’d pick the right one. You could go back upstairs and play video games with your friends or you could stay in the kitchen and cook with me, spend time together. A smile went on your face as you kissed my nose, thanking me as you ran back upstairs, telling me to call you when the food was ready.

I finished preparing the food. I served myself a bow of Mac and cheese. Cutting up some freshly baked applewood bacon to sprinkle on top. I am now eating Mac and cheese with bacon by myself in the kitchen.

While you play video games.

Edit 1: Oh shit this wasn’t supposed to get a lot of attention. I thought this was going to get buried. I just woke up and read through the comments and wanted to clear some stuff up.

The reason why I didn’t communicate right then and there was because this was a planned date night for just the two of us. When I noticed that he didn’t appear interested in our in-home date, I gave him the option to stay or to go upstairs. I don’t want to force him to stay and do something half-hearted if he’s not going to be fully there/interested. He made the option of going upstairs to his friends and I made the option to eat alone in the kitchen, writing an angsty unsent letter.

He was definitely more attentive at the start of our relationship but I guess as most of you have put it, he’s comfortable now. He has always been a gamer since the day we met in high school. Only difference was back then, we had more free time. Went to school, finish our homework and we’d both hop on our PCs and play video games together.

Now, we’re adults going to college full time. On top of full time college enrollment, I’m also working full time so the limited free time I have is mainly dedicated to schoolwork. He is also working part time as he struggles with the online curriculum, so he made the switch to part time to focus more on school but he is doing work remotely from home while I have to go work in person. He does his work, attend his online lectures, does his homework and goes on to play video games for the rest of the day to unwind. I go to work, then to school, then do my homework.

I definitely have plans on talking to him. Just need to gather up my thoughts and whatnot.