It is delightful to be in your presence. I want to spend long hours talking, learning all about you, sharing clarity and authenticity. Or we might delve into some intriguing theories, tell stories of the natural world. I almost never feel safe around anyone, but certainly do around you. I am drawn to your heart—that is primary. You are beautiful to be sure, and I certainly feel attracted to you. But that does not lead.

I do not see you often, due to pandemic. You do not know my feelings, as far as I have not disclosed them. I also am not quite sure if you are romantically or physically drawn to my gender. I am so terrified to tell you any of this. What if telling you causes more suffering than not? I really don’t know. But I need to tell you. Otherwise it will be so much harder for these feelings to move on, to let go, and perhaps transform so we can be good friends.