idk how we got this far but we text and call almost everyday. it’s nice until sometimes it’s not. sometimes i feel like you want things from me i can’t give you and it’s because i don’t want to i feel like i’m obligated to i feel the same shame i always do. you say i can talk to you but this stale silence fills inside of me and you seem so distant. i feel used at times and that’s okay it’s not like we can gain much more from this anyway. i get too carried away but i feel like you definitely had to have known atleast just a little you said it too. it hurts to feel this way it hurts to not be able to talk about it either it makes me feel even lonelier than i was before