Honestly I'm still pretty conflicted about you. Given how things went before, I really shouldn't even bother trying, but theres something about you I just can't let go. Is it because you were so easily accessible before? Well, as much as it may have felt like it in the moment, that was hardly the case. Maybe its because you brought out some new sides of me I had yet to see? Well that's true, and that's a factor, but I still feel starved for more. Maybe I see something in you? That could be it. But I'm not sure what. Everything points to toxicity, to a bad mix. We have different interests at heart, different paths. And yet, it's strange to say that those moments we had together seemed to feel almost perfect. At least they did to me. You never really showed much emotion other than the subtle compliment here and there. I do know I like that I can't always figure you out. But at what point do I need to ask for more? Do I deserve it? I don't know. One thing I do know is you don't care either way. And as much as I hate to admit it, and rather it would be different, I guess at this point, I don't mind.