Dear the person who changed my life in a way I could never imagine~

I’m not sure if i should love you or hate you for what you did, but one things for sure, you deserve to be thanked for it. We both made mistakes, but at least I tried to fix mine.

Thank you for skewing the level of priority that you promised would be equal.

Thank you for using me as a second option, pegging me as second best.

Thank you for getting offended when I was curious as to why.

Thank you for pushing me away when I tried to tell you that I cared.

Thank you for lying to my face and getting mad at me for finding out.

Thank you for not trying to understand what I was scared about.

Thank you for pushing me away again when I wanted to apologize and fix what I did wrong.

Thank you for sending my life into a tailspin.

Thank you for getting mad at both my friends who were helping me get better.

Thank you for showing me you didn’t care enough to understand how you made me feel.

Because if that had never happened, if you hadn’t done those things, I wouldn’t know which friends were real and which just didn’t care. Which friends could tell I wasn’t doing well and which ones couldn’t be bothered to ask a second time. You made me isolate myself, a catalyst to break away from the fake friends I had surrounded myself with. So thank you for showing me who my real friends were, and that people around me actually care.

And one more thing I want to say: you’re no better than the two people I complain about the most, the two people that are the biggest pains in my ass every time I make a mistake. I messed up and I hurt you, I know I did and I want to change my ways and make things better. You refuse to see that, you don’t trust me to follow through on my word, and that makes you no better than my parents.

I just have one last question: Did you ever really care, or did you just like the attention I gave you?