this is just wanting to say thanks for everything you've done for me and with me. i feel more confident since I've met you. we have done so many things, you made me realise that there is so much more to it than i ever knew. I'm also really happy that we confronted my parents, they have changed a bit since we had that conversation

all that's left to say for me is that i really really fucking miss you. those 2 years flew by. i don't know what to do in my weekends now cuz I'm so used to it that i would see you.

the last weeks have been really really rough, my sleeping pattern is down the drain and i just don't feel so great. i don't want to blame you for that. it's more that i feel like i need someone to look at me like you did. you're still the world to me and i can't imagine myself a world without you anymore.

the order of writing this down is probably completely shit but it's that i need to get it off my chest writing this brings a tear to my eyes but also a smile on my face. all the memories i have with you are just so good and beautiful. i remember almost everything we have done together, from our first date to our last trip and Glow. all of it was really special and really beautiful. i miss those days already.

I know you think that i blame you for your feelings, but i didn't. i reflected my mistakes to you during that conversation and that's the most stupid thing i could've done and i realise now that that was the last bit for you. I wish could turn back time and make sure that this wouldn't happen.

I know I have to move on and i think I'm ready to do so, but you'll always have a special place in my heart. you've brought me so much joy and my year was thanks to you really amazing. it's not that i don't want to see or talk with you anymore, i just need the closure and that's why i wanted to meet up and talk this through.