I told you I didn't want a long distance relationship. I TOLD YOU that it wouldn't work because of our schedules and how much money the both of us had in our pockets. I TOLD YOU that if you really want this to work, we're gonna need an actual plan of how we would do this. Yet, you just kept saying, "Idk. All I know is that it'll work out in the end." How does this a relationship make? Sure, we text each other "I love you" every so often but the phone calls were even less for us even though that made us talk even more rather than filler text messages.

If we're broken up, taking a break from each other, or fighting for the very first time without it actually being a real fight, I don't know/care anymore because I'm just so tired with what looks like me trying while all I get is one word answers from you. It's probably the right choice to not be together since there were not any plans whatsoever to actually stay together. I'm just so frustrated that there has been close to zero planning in what we can do to get ourselves closer to the other; what we can do to make our future together into a reality; what we can do to stay in love with each other.

You say that you were willing to try to keep us together, that you thought our love for the other was enough to bring us back into the other's arms. I asked you multiple times and I'll ask you again, "HOW?" How are you willing to keep us together if you keep telling me that you don't know. HOW are is our love going to be strong enough to keep us together if you're still hiding the fact that you're still talking to me from your mother who hates me still? HOW will we be able to see each other again if we're both so focused on our jobs to get more money but spend it on other stuff instead of saving for trips to see the other? That's how I was going to help with the relationship.

It was me that suggested to try to visit the other when you were thinking about breaking up again due to the distance. It was ME that suggested to meet up in different cities or places near you because I wouldn't want to upset your mom by hanging around your apartment while she still hates me. It was ME that kept bringing up new things to try in this long distance relationship like facetiming instead of regular calls because then we can see each other as we talked. All you did was the same things you did when our relationship was towards the beginning when we actually saw each other at least every other week. Long distance relationships are completely different than what we had before, My Love, and I'm sorry it had to end like this.

I still love you and you'll always be special in my heart but I can't do this any longer without my frustration coming to a boil like this. My Love, I wish you the best of what life has to offer you and that you'll find someone who can love you so much more than I can because they will be there for you instead of another far place. You deserve to give the love that you have for me to your future partner and increase it tenfold. I will only be a chapter in your book now.

Goodbye and well wishes, My Love. I'll still be around if you ever need me again but we can't be what we used to be before.

Forever thinking of you,

Annie