Things are starting to feel but just a dream, and I'm desperately trying to hold on to every letter and find meaning in every word hoping to give me some glimmer of hope that what we have is truly not lost.

It was a connection I've never felt and never even thought possible. I wasn't looking for it, and it caught me (i thought us) by surprise.

You were the one person I could say anything too, but now that's lost as well just like me. You were the compass I never know I needed. My north star to guide me in the next chapters of my life. Now, I will have to figure things out by myself. I hope not, I hope you still find your way back to me.