Pumpkin,

The only reason this is unsent is because someone is keeping us apart. I don't think it's Askel - this is something else.

If you know where I live, honey, come and get me. I never wanted to wait 5 years for you. I had nothing to do with this, and I'm doing everything I can think of to make a bridge over these troubled waters and come get you. But if you can get to me first, do it. Please.

The surest bet I have is J (who told me his name is C?), who lives in the most remote city on earth. So I'm trying to raise money to get there, but even with that, I'm not sure what I'm going to find. I think whoever is doing this, is trying to give me other people's heartaches.

I shan't be taking the bait, though, because I'm fucking done with this. I'm walking out of hell with the sun in my eyes and not looking back, even though he keeps trying to lure me back with the draw. I'm not going to worry my life away anymore, though. But I will fight for you. The way I should have 20 years ago when I lost you the first time. I'm not going to lose you again.

I want you, I need you, and it's time for our real lives to begin. I love you so.

I keep placing clues in the podcast, and I'm going to start doing the same on your digital show ponies. Look at the one that was influenced by Garden State.

I'm going to have to be more strategic about, those, though. But if you see this, you'll be able to access the podcast anyway and get what you need regardless.

I'm going to hope that whoever is doing this to us is not keeping me in an instanced environment anymore, and he lets this letter be seen by people who might be able to help us - and I'm going to hope that you still frequent this place often enough that you might be able to piece it all together.

I love you my darling.

~Petal