Hey, guess it's been about a year. I tried to message you through email a time or two. I know in one of those messages I was a real dick. I'm sorry. I was still struggling pretty bad though there really isn't an excuse. I won't lie, I don't think the flame I have for you will ever truly extinguish. I certainly think about you a lot still. I actually drove by your work about 2 weeks back, through the parking lot and saw your car and I even thought I saw you sitting in it. My heart started racing, for a moment I even thought of stopping. God I wanted to. Just to see you. Maybe get a hug. Though who knows if I could handle that . I was actually on day 2 of no drink when I drove through your lot. I didn't stop. I didn't cry though either, I drove past your car and I went to go pickup E from school and we went and caught pokemon. And I didn't drink that night. And I still have not. Day 14 today. I think you'd be proud. I am. I wish I could've found whatever I found to stop, when I still had you, before what we were building became a chapter rather than the story.

Idk what I'm trying to say here. I don't remember your number. And I don't think I'll try to email contact you again, because I have to believe if we were ever gonna talk, you might have replied since. Who knows. I'm not holding hope for you, though I will always hold a place in my heart, unfortunately I don't think I can just cut you out.

I have some really cool things coming into the mix for 2025. I only wish sometimes, I could tell you about them, and bring you with me on my adventures again.

Give my love to the Boy. God I miss him so much. And You.

Cheers, <Redacted >.

With love.