I've been missing you today. We were best friends for 19 years. I know we've grown apart the last couple years which is what lead to our 'break up' a couple months ago. I wasn't sad initially because I'd already mourned the loss of our friendship for the past couple years. I'd felt angry and sad already for too long.

I just couldn't give, give, give anymore and I no longer recognized you. I don't know you. I don't know who you've become. I did mean it when I said you've become everything we used to hate. We didn't like bougie people who flaunted their money. We didn't like people whose money changed them. You changed into someone I no longer recognize. I don't even think you recognize yourself anymore.

But 19 years is a lifetime. Today I am really missing you. I'm smoking a bowl in bed in my pjs thinking how many bowls we've shared in bed just laughing or watching some dumb ass show, eating way too much pizza, being stupid.

It all seems so far away, like a dream that was so long ago.

I hope you're happy, i hope you don't live your life miserable and depressed. Life is too short.

Love you always, if you ever need me I'll be here.

<3