To the love of my life, the one that got away, to the woman whom I planned my future with, to the woman who made me not love another woman the same as her.

It has been 7 months since we broke up. I never knew that I could make it this long without seeing you, without hearing your beautiful voice, without knowing your touch, your soft lips, and the random back hugs you give me when I make you food, and your sweet innocent smile. Oh how life is truly unfair. I lost you when I loved you the most and up until now my heart yearns for the feeling that you gave me every time spent with you.

My heart continues to break day by day since the last time I held you. Even if I managed to pick up the pieces week after week, the pieces that fall continues to do so everyday. The thought of me moving on and healing from you is like a double edged sword, that saves me at the same time hurts me for deep within I know I don't want to forget you or our memories.

You haunt me everyday, you haunt me every night. How I wish I can turn back time and do it differently with you. I miss the days where we could talk for hours and tell to each other the day isn't enough. I miss the nights of just the two of us, where I could see in your eyes the future we both wanted. Your eyes that are brown like hazelnut, eyes that weakens me to my core.

All I ever wish for you is to be happy, even if all I could ever do now is love you from afar.