Dear Future Partner,

Hello again, another update, this one probably unexpected, but it's better to write than keep inside.

I was recently able to have closure on something that happened a long time ago, back then I was a kid, I didn't know what I was doing, I winged it and it burnt me, it tore me apart but I rebuilt, I moved on.... well I tried to.

Fast forward to last week when I took an opportunity, there were things I had to say, things I had bottled up, answers to questions long forgotten.

If you ever read this and we meet, I'll tell you all the details in the future, but for now this is all I'll say.

Just know that I said what I needed to say, I answered the questions I needed to answer, I got the closure I never thought I needed.

It feels good, like a huge weight is lifted from my shoulders, another demon in my head cast out.

For a long time I told myself "it's okay, I'm fine, I've moved on", a lie.

I wasn't okay, I wasn't fine and while I did try, I didn't move on.

But now is the time I can finally admit, that I am okay, that I am fine and that I can now finally let go and move on.

The chapter is finally closed, the skeleton in my closet is gone.

The person I was then is finally gone, now I can look forward to a future unknown, I'm not sure who I'm going to be but I'm excited to find out.

Life is a journey, you make mistakes, it's not perfect and probably never will be, but admitting, learning and growing takes guts, it takes time and most importantly it's takes a mistake to learn from, to understand where you need to go and who you need to be.

I know this isn't the usual letter I'd cast out to you, but sometimes you need to put stuff out there to feel better, this is one of them.

I hope you're having a great life at the moment, I'm still looking for you and I can't wait to meet you.

Yours

Your Informal Cucumber X