This is my only Reddit account I don’t make any fake ones I don’t have time to do shit like that. I only have my one Facebook and my one insta aswell I’m done trying to be sneaky you know who I am. I want you to know no matter what your all I ever wanted and still do. Yes I made a lot of mistakes but you have to understand I never felt true love before you. I had to learn the hard way to understand what I was doing wrong and I completely understand now. I understand you are in pain from what happened cause I know you were real in the beginning but my lack of love in the beginning made you change and your past made you believe no one would love you if they don’t only want one thing. But think about it I never only wanted you for that one thing cause I hardly even did it with you we both are traumatized from our past. Childhoods and how we got treated by people we truly trusted and thought loved us. You’re the only person I felt I could actually love like that. After you I realize all I attract are women who are the same who also have been CSA at a young age. But they have addictions to wanting sex so that’s why they end up always cheating and doing things like that. I can’t stress the importance that I didn’t have sex untill I was 26 soo when you showed me true intimacy I have only ever felt able to fully embrace was with you. I’m sorry if I made you feel like that’s all I wanted but iam more understanding why everything happened the way it happened. Cause like I said that’s all I attract and that what they always worry about is men who only want one thing that is a source of there trauma. But I didn’t care about it until I was with you cause you’re the only person I actually felt like I may have been able to do it right with sadly. Since you left I still havnt been able to not that I didn’t have chances I literally just couldn’t with other women. That’s why iam stuck on you I knew my conscience knew I was made for you. For someone who needs more than just a sexual partner but someone who understands love and unconditional love. Someone who will be compassionate and have empathy for what you go through. Every mistake every sad day or feeling hurt. I needed to be there for you, but I wasn’t instead I see how you could think that’s all I wanted. But I also made your food everyday I made you comfortable cause I felt loved when I could make you happy and that’s what made me happy was seeing you happy. You have to admit when we first started it was more than just affection. I’m just not good at tuning in my feelings and being empathetic to someone holding and loving someone when I have to be vulnerable made me feel awkward. Because growing up no body showed me love like that. I had to be hard and silent to show I wasn’t loved. And I did that to you. I’m sorry I truly am. There’s no words that can make up the time and shit that happened the same way you feel I wish we could go back and fix it all. That’s something we can’t do but what we can is try to move forward and give it one last chance if you really do think we were what we thought we were cause believe me I knew the whole time we loved each other soo very much. I felt the soul connection I felt the shit we both posted the feeling of someone always watching us some how through some way. I knew by your tik tok posts or instagram posts you loved me. But my friends all convinced me not. But only me and you could feel this. That’s because only me and you went through what we did and knew how we felt for each other. I believe in true love and I think I may have just lost mine. Due to both of our actions from both of our traumas from me not knowing and you not understanding. Communication was flawed but I mentally felt you. Whether we couldn’t tell each other the truth we both felt it. I hope you know your loved truly Loved nobody has made me feel this way and prob never will. Cause this guilt we both feel for the shit that happened is real. I LOVE YOU L.E.L YOUR NAME YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE YOUR VOICE YOUR EYES YOUR SMILE YOUR CARE AND COMPASSION YOUR EVERYTHING EVEN YOUR FLAWS… ❤️❤️❤️💔🖤🖤🖤❤️‍🔥❤️‍🩹💯⏳Progress Daily My Love I Know We Will Get Through This And Be With Each Other Soon. In this lifetime or the next we are Twin Flames 🔥 Pisces and Cancer are meant for each other.