I thought you were incredible. I saw your flaws. I hoped one day you would let me give you the love and devotion you hadn't grown up with, and that you would love me back and be devoted to me. We wanted the same things. Everything you presented to me about a future- which it was early and I thought you were just flirting- I wanted. The chickens, the cows, the kids - even adopted, the 4 times a day. I never told you but I always have thought of adopting. I loved how we both loved our city in a similar way.

I thought we were going to fall in love. Not that you weren't healed from *her* and didn't realize it.

I held back because I was so afraid of scaring you off with how excited about you I was. I might have sounded agreeable, and every time I said, "I agree," to your interesting statements, that I wish I elaborated as to why, so you got to know me more and maybe you would have been as excited about me. I was crazy about you. Now everyone I meet doesn't measure up to you.

But I don't measure up to *her.* You're reading this and you're thinking of *her.* You're hoping to see a clue that *she* is trying to find you and get you back. I'm pretty sure you'll scroll by this post, maybe read it but maybe not, because you'll realize quickly, I'm not *her.*

I hope one day you will think of me and realize how great I am. You knew I was going through an awful time and you abandoned me, no warning, no consideration. This is the only flaw of yours I can't stand. I wish you would reach out and make it up to me.