I know we only knew each other for a short amount of time, but you made me feel emotions that I hadn't felt in years and I really thought you meant what you said. So when you told me you were not ready for a relationship, my dismissive avoidance came out full force and all I could say was "okay, thanks for letting me know". The truth is that there was so much I wanted to say but I was exhausted. Exhausted from work that day, exhausted from past dating experiences, and simply exhausted with trying to make people stay in my life. Although I deleted our messages out of anger, I'll attempt to answer your questions as I remember them.

• "What happens after your trip?"
  • If we had met in person and the chemistry was there, I was willing to change my plans of moving back home for you.
• "I felt like you were trying to make me jealous on purpose"
  • I'll admit it that I was being toxic and wanted to make you jealous. I'm sorry that I did that. It was immature of me.
• "I'm not ready for kids"
  • Just because I have names picked out for my future kids, doesn't mean that I want kids right now. I want to travel the world and see/experience different things.
• " You want to talk on the phone every night and I value my independence"
  • I usually never want to talk on the phone every night but you kept telling me that I sounded like "an angel" and that you liked my voice. I don't know at what point your feelings changed but I enjoyed receiving those compliments, and I enjoyed the way your voice sounded too.
  • Yes, I judged you for going out 3 nights in a row. I didn't know your social life was that active and I knew that if we were to get into a relationship, that it probably would cause resentment.

You tried to let me down gently by saying that I was attractive and I was a catch and you weren't ready for a relationship, but the reality is that you came to the realization that you didn't want to be in a relationship with me. And because I promised myself that I'll never let a man tell me twice that he's not interested in me, I blocked you. I'm only answering these questions now because I'm in a better spot mentally. S.R.G, I wish you the best and I know you'll be a great bf when you're ready.