And your toxicity makes me turn into someone who is also toxic. I hate you for how you’ve treated me. I’ve given you everything. I’ve given you my life. My time. My energy. My heart. My body. My money. I gave you 4 kids. I moved across the country with you. I have been a rock for you. I’ve built you up. I’ve given you opportunities to chase your dreams, to do the things your heart tells you you need to do. I’ve have been a steady person in your life. I’ve gone above and beyond for you time and time again.

You’ve always made me feel like I’m not enough. You’ve always had eyes for other women. And when I left the door open for you to leave, you always have decided to stay. When we broke up, I didn’t want you back and I was trying so hard to stand on that decision but then you changed your game and you started treating me well. You made me believe that we could have a family and we could have a future. But then you cheated on me a month after having a baby and struggling with postpartum depression. You started reminding me that once again, I’m not enough and I don’t make you feel things that you want to feel. You went on a trip to another country to support your friend, and before the plane even left the airport, you took off your wedding ring. You met a young beautiful girl who made you feel special and now you’re leaving me to chase her and some grandiose life you believe you’re going to live.

You’re selfish. You’re so selfish. And I’m so heartbroken.