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Hey, I hope youâre alright. Iâve been struggling, Iâm so confused and lost. I feel like a part of me has died. Whatâs going on? Am I unwanted? Iâve been waiting for you to come back like you said you would, but Iâm starting to lose hope. I thought you said you wanted me in your life no matter what? You told me when we first met that you would never ghost me like this, when I first opened up to my abandonment trauma you told me âNo, I would never abandon youâ Was that all just a lie? You said you donât want to hurt me, but thatâs not a good excuse because if you didnât want to hurt me you wouldnât leave like this. You always told me to be direct with you, so why arenât you direct with me? Why are you acting like I donât exist. Just because youâre avoidant doesnât give you an excuse to do this, Iâm a real person with real feelings and I still exist after you blocked me.
I feel so unwanted, nobody wants me around not even you. I mean the last thing you said to me was that Iâm not a lost cause and then you throw me away like Iâm a lost cause. You even told me that if I did this to you, you would be sad. You know how much pain being abandoned causes, so why is it ok to do it to me? Forget dating for now, I truly do believe we are both soulmates. We both just arenât ready yet, maybe that time will come down the line who knows. But that doesnât mean we have to leave each otherâs lives, I want to be friends. Itâs not impossible either. Remember when I was the one who wasnât ready? Even then you still wanted me in your life.
Please if you really do care about me that much I just need an answer from you, I need closure. Youâre very important to me, Iâve lost a lot of very important people in my life recently and I donât want to lose you too. I want you, I want you in my life, even if we are just friends. No matter how much potential hurt that being together causes equals the hurt from not being able to have you in my life. But thatâs not up to me, I need to know what you want. We both promised to be each others diaries, so tell me the truth of how you feel about me. Trust me I can handle it, the only thing I canât handle is you blocking me again or ignoring me. Do you want me in your life? Yes or no?
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