Because I feel like I've known you for years. You are so easy to talk to even if english is not my native language. It's weird because I'm not a sociable person. I don't usually do calls even with filipinos. Really. No joke.

But ofcourse I have to be rational. I have to look at things in a logical perspective, look at the pros and cons, give you and myself time to gauge things, and to consider different factors in our lives, individually.

For years, I feel like I am caged. But with you I am free. I can't wait to see you. But I have to be very patient.

I've been told I'm too intense and emotional by people I've tried to date before that's why it doesn't work.

I've been told that I tend to overthink and to over analyze things.

I've been told that I am always scared and at the same time, I tend to jump headfirst.

I've been told I give mixed signals but really it's me being scared and anxious. They gave me a nervous feeling and a strange gut feeling. You don't. It's fucking weird.

You give me peace and freedom, and at the same time, you give me butterflies, in a good way.

I don't wanna ruin this. That's why I handle it like a precious glass globe. I always tend to be risk averse because of past circumstances and experiences that's why I'm slow.

But really, I have a good feeling about this.