I am so tired of replaying these events in my head over and over again. All of the physical and emotional betrayal that he has inflicted on me. How he uses "being the main bread winner" for only 2 years when it was ME who paid the finances on literally every apartment we've had. Even though I am so afraid of retaliation and that he would never honor an agreement between us for custody and finances. That I feel in my gut that this sicko would take me to court, pushed by his twisted parents, I am so sick of living a lie. I can't live like this. I can't live with the false narrative being perpetuated and just living to be an example in the shadow of his family's fucked up metrics. The fact that I have to sit here and be forced into singing the praises of a group of people who continue to drag me through shit. I can't do it. I'm really trying to get into a new career/lifestyle with a relationship that has run its course. Something is going to go.