I miss you so much. I know we haven’t even met yet, but I thought you were the one. We had so much in common, we did almost everything together, I loved you more than anyone else. But now you’re gone. I don’t know why, did I do something wrong? Is there something I could have done differently? Maybe I’m just too blind to see, but it’s been eating at me every day since you left.

I know you were struggling. I wanted to do anything I could to help. I was there for you, through thick and thin. I still remember we promised each other that we would never leave. Sure we’re both young and promises don’t always stick, but I held out hope. I still love you. I’m really trying to get better, and one day I’m hoping you’ll come back. But as the months go on, it’s getting harder and harder for me to keep going.

I miss your smile, your laugh, your personality, everything about you. Even if you didn’t like parts of yourself, you’ve always been perfect in my eyes.

I’ve tried to move on, but I can’t. Nobody can replace you. I know it’s selfish of me to not move on and instead be attached to you, but you were the one thing that kept me going every day.

I hope one day you’ll reach out to me, even though I know you probably won’t. Even if it was to just have one more conversation together, hear your laugh one more time, anything. I miss you, and I love you. I always will. I hope you’re doing well, and I hope you have someone that makes you as happy as you made me. You deserve the best.

~Z