I’m going through hell lately.

I have like no family or friends. The guy I was dating I’m not even sure if we’re really together anymore. I have a 7 month old son and a small cat that I love dearly. Sometimes I yell at my son in frustration and am working on stopping that. It’s hard being depressed and doing it all on my own.

My life is a mess.

I don’t know who to turn to, or what to even say anymore that won’t result in me furthering the destruction of my life.

I used to use meth and used it everyday for years with the exception of when I was pregnant. Needless to say I’ve been clean for awhile now since getting ripped off by the one person I knew where to get it from. That’s made things even harder since now on top of being depressed and having little to no help from anyone in real life, now I have no energy and nothing is getting done.

Most recently I’ve been considering ending my life. It has reached a breaking point and I am in so much pain emotionally that I cannot cope with the day to day living that human beings must do to get by in life. I have no support system. Almost everyone I know has turned their back on me and left me to figure all this out on my own.

I just wish I would die, but not really.

I wish things would get better. I wish someone would love me enough to stay with me even when things get hard.