sure as shit & as sure as the stars will once again align I have always had this impending doom feeling at least as far back as I can remember.I'm destined to be alone as close as people who truly tried have come and as much as I really want it I destroy anything good devouring their love until they have nothing left to give and everything is destroyed, disintegrating in my hands all to crumble through my fingers and disappear as if it never mattered I become someone's horrible relationship of what was the villain as I'd understand it like I was the lesson to be learned so someone else enjoys the better version and it is not from a lack of trying I try believe it or not I fall and fall hard immersin myself into everything I do and do for them .I guess I should have expected nothing more born into a world from a woman's mistake and can't say I blame her from seeing me a misfortune I was born from the seed of some kind of knockoff to the human race a form of a man who truly left with his presence a taste of disdain with you evil angry and just dark. I tell you it's fated tradition would have it that names use to be given to people with a greater meaning as some kind of badge well my name is Hebrew and in Hebrew my name means to be loved the one who is the most loved I mean what a cruel joke for someone who has literally felt so unloved and not worthy of it is almost comical I'm telling you it's accurate looking at is from a opposite direction and if that's true it's definitely all in the name.