Hi baby,

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Life has changed pretty drastically since we miscarried you back in 2018.

We changed jobs, lost grandma, got a dog…, had your little sisters, moved across the country…

I find myself thinking about you less often which fills me with so much sadness and guilt. But it’s times like these when I can’t help but think of who you would’ve been. You would be starting kindergarten this year. I am supposed to be getting your first day of school outfit ready, packing your lunch with your favorites and leaving a special treat for you to find. Instead, I’m still grieving your loss.

What would’ve been your favorite color? Super hero or princess? Your favorite song to sing? Who would’ve you looked like? I won’t ever know.

But I do know, you were so loved and wanted, little baby. We tried so long to create you and were so sad when you had to leave. I hope you know that momma still loves you and I’m so sorry I couldn’t do more to save you.

I will be donating some school supplies and book bags in your remembrance. I hope wherever you are, you still get to experience these earthly things.

Xoxo—Momma