I’ve missed you. I miss you a lot. I forget it every single day how much I miss you. I miss the way we used to talk. I miss how silly the conversations we use to have. I used to miss how happy you made me how Happy I was to call you mine. I just thought you were the coolest guy ever when you had your stuff together you were so cute and you had everything you could ever want in your whole life and you were so smart you are so much better than I was you were too good for me and that’s why I let you go and I think that’s why I cheated on you and sabotage it because I didn’t feel right letting somebody else take care of me the way you said you wanted to. I think it scared me to let somebody take care of me like that I don’t care how chunky you are ry you were the world I desperately wanted to be apart of but didn’t trust the life in front of me. I’m so happy you’re here. I don’t know why you’re here are you are. I won’t lie your drinking kind of scared me it guy would get bored if you drink every. I hope I can be a part of your recovery and I really hope that you made everything you say. I really do remember everything you said.