I took a trip up to cross village and passed father joes cross. I sat at the resting place for about an hour I’m burnt for sure but it was so worth it. The drive was amazing that was always my favorite in that old truck all those back roads back to the city. I didn’t cry today I smiled and laughed I brought cupcakes the kids had a ball throwing rocks just being out by the water. Samuel is so big you should see him. I’ve never been so proud to have such a sweet boy. You never did get to meet paisley though I’m not sure what you would’ve said I can only imagine. I know your out there looking out for us. I’m trying hard pops my absolutes best. I’m going to follow through with my dreams I promise although I’m not sure what that means right now. I will get back to my work out routines hopefully I’ll keep pace and be healthy I’m sorry I haven’t stopped vaping I did quit smoking though not sure it much different. I wish I could go back to the days on the beach with you and grams on Memorial Day but something’s always last forever I’m just not a kid anymore I’m the one driving. Everything is different now even the swings. Soon nothing will be the same and we all learn to adapt to change.