C,

I am fully aware of your feelings and validate them completely. Your reaction to what happened today broke me. I am devastated by the venom that came from you. What you said to me is not something I can come back from; I no longer look at you the way I did this morning.

Your explanation is inadequate. I am unable to look past the hurtful words...and the assumption that I was going to be just fine with you saying it, that our lunch was still on and that our date this evening would still take place. I disconnected from you because I cannot look across a table at you and see a beautiful, sweet, brilliant woman. All I see is that meanness, that venom.

So, I'm sorry but yes, our connection is broken. Maybe irretrievably. We'll have to see how life plays out. But know that I did love you and that I enjoyed having you in my life. Right now, you cannot be there.

Maybe I'll recover and we'll be able to talk about it and see each other's side. But don't expect that to be any time soon. It won't be. And I'm very sad about that.

I miss you already.

B