I was going through the clothes in my room and I came across one of my favorite sexy nighties. Not that it matters because I have no one to wear it for. Not to mention I’m kind of chunky and not that sexy anyway. I’ve had five kids can you blame me? Yes girl it was your fault you got knocked up anyway. I wish I could go back to when sex wasn’t an option. When I was 12 and sat by the swings like a innocent little baby. My asthma is hella bad right now can’t even run with out having half an asthma attack. So I walked yesterday. I’m sorry my depression and psychosis got the best of me instead of the people who deserved it most. Maybe I would’ve been different maybe I wouldn’t have done what I did. Kinda makes sense you know. I should’ve told you I told everyone else way sooner. I’m sorry if I hurt you. And even if it didn’t I’m still sorry. I never meant to use you for sex but you used me so I was rolling with it because I like to fuck as much as the next person. I know your close I hate it I wish I could runaway from you and maybe that’s why I’m running. I haven’t spoken to you in months again. Hopefully it’ll close this hole you didn’t start it but you sure didn’t help either. Don’t worry about me I’ll be fine I’ll trade that pos in eventually. My life isn’t in ruins it used to be in ruins when I was with my husband constantly. I’m happier now I don’t have his problems to deal with and I’m sure he’s happy to not deal with mine. I didn’t have a bed of roses exactly more like drug induced coal mine searching in the dark is more like it. It’s ok me and my Carmel whiskey at home with my kitty Kat can make it through whatever life throws at me. I know how to communicate like an adult so if you have anything to say lay it on me.