Hi H,

This will be a weird journal entry but I wanted to get all my feelings out and say everything I wish I had said before you left and told me goodbye and to live life.

You were a dream that I wanted to go on forever. I fell hard and I had no clue how many changes you left in your wake. This morning I woke up alone and all I can think is the dream will fade in time and I can't look at your pictures without crying.

I hate that I smiled so much and life was lived to the fullest, you brought life and warmth into my darkness and showed me how I should be treated and cared for. In all my years never has a person treated me as well as you. Which upset me because I don't know where to go from here without you. I know you needed to fly and maybe I put you on a pedestal so high that I learned to fly beside you ?

I know your not coming back and it breaks my heart, but I'm going to keep flying and reach my goals always remembering the dream of you

I love you, without clay my sunflower I wish the absolute best for you and I want you to be happy

A fallen king