Do you realize the true extent of what you've done by gasighting me, and all the things you've done to destroy me socially and psychologically?

I mean, beyond me?

Do you know what my family has lost because of who I am now? My friends? The people who actually love me?

Why? Why have you hurt THEM? You stole someone special from them and gave them a pathetic, insane shadow of a person.

The damage you've done is permanent. Do you know that? Unless you could actually fess up to your part in my demise. But you won't. Because you're too chicken shit to actually care.

You've learned how to make the overt actions of a care, but you jus don't have it in you.

They killed that part of you off when you were a kid. I know. And believe me, I still get angry and hurt for you and the others wen I think about how sick those people were.

You didn't deserve what the did.

And I didn't deserve what you did.

Maybe I do, now.

But you'll never be able to appreciate that I tried harder for you than anyone else. I should be able to be proud of that. But I'm ashamed. it should have gone to the one I abandoned.