I'm not gonna fight it anymore. I can't keep wallowing in pain. I can't keep letting someone who I mean nothing to keep controlling my life. I can't keep hoping someone who thought I wasn't good enough, and treated me accordingly, will suddenly realize he was wrong. He never will. I'm lonely. And it hurts worse than any death. I've been lonely for the biggest part of the three and a half decades I've known you. I've been lonely for the entire 16 years I was married to you. I'm ready to move on.

He has your name, with an extra letter. His last name starts with the same letter as ours. He has long hair like you did. He's even NDN just like us, and he's proud of it. But he's spiritual like me, and he's open like me. He's caring like me. But he's not scared like I am. And he's not cruel like you are. He doesn't think I'm good enough...he thinks I'm amazing! And I have avoided giving him the chance because of what you did to me.

But today I'm ready. I don't want to suffer alone anymore. It's not fair to me. And holding onto the ideal that I thought you were is not fair to you. So I'm letting you go. And I'm letting him in. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you, but I'm ready to be happy now, so my love for you has to go.