I met you at an unexpected time, unplanned, unanticipated.

I think that's what made me love the idea of us even more.

I wasn't looking for you. In fact, I was in the process of finding myself again.

I was recovering from depression and finally feeling happiness again though it was still fleeting.

Since then, it's been a rollercoaster of emotions. The highest high and lowest low.

As I looked forward to seeing you more, you still only see the rest of the world.

Which is fine, but I wish you yearned time with me too.

In the time we've gotten to know each other and get closer,

You've somehow made me feel both one of a kind yet absolutely worthless.

But I realized I do know my worth enough to know that I'm not just an afterthought.

I'm not just someone to add to the group. I'm the person to plan with. Not a copy and paste.

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I just hope you made the right decision in not moving forward.

I hope you don't find yourself searching for me in everyone you meet.

Because as big as your world is, and as your network of people continues to grow, you won't find me again.

You can search on either edge of the world, and out into the cosmos, and still won't find another me.

I hope you're listened to, admired, uplifted.

I hope someone looks forward to your stories and jokes.

I hope someone thinks you're worth losing sleep over.

I hope they find solace in your breathing pattern as you finally fall asleep.

I hope you're told that your eyes are pretty again.

Because yes, I remember how you said you'd never gotten that before.

I remembered even that.

I hope they remember all the intricate and beautiful details about you.

I hope it hurts them when you do things that only bring you harm.

I hope they pray for you.

I hope they provide the safe space that you need.

I hope they find you as beautiful as I did.

Goodbye, 'friend' and favourite being to grace this universe.

I'm both grateful and heartbroken that we had to cross paths.

In the story of you and I, we once had a shot at a once in a lifetime love.

If you ever do feel the void, you know where to find me.

And hopefully you'll know how much effort it'll take restore the beauty of us.