I wait up at night to see if you get online briefly. I don’t do it intentionally but I realize it’s why I often put off sleep. I light up when you write me or appear in my notifications. And when I open up about how much I care about you - I mean it. I decided until we saw each other again I would carry on with this nobly and quietly. A loving friend but never crossing that delicate line. I want to cross it now but I won’t dare. I’ll give it more time. And I hope when we finally are looking each other in the eyes we can be brave and I can open up to you at long last.

I have been hurt several times and so have you, so I’m not itching to repeat the cycle, perpetuate the pattern. And there are so many obstacles…. But I don’t want to live my life with this unexpressed. And I want you to know, no matter what, I will always be here for you. When I tell you how good you are, I mean it.