I still don't understand how we ended up like this, but it's been 2 months now since you decided to end our relationship, and one month since our baby boy was born...

I thought I was getting better and moving on, but it still hurts. My love for you is so deep, and I would do literally anything to call you mine again. I was so sure about you, and I think you will always be my person.

It's hard enough with you calling me every day still 2-3 times a day, and telling me everything about your days and still telling me about your special interests.. Why are you doing this? You even tell me about the new girls you're talking to. It hurts so much, yet I still wear my smile and support you however I can. Though when you left, you told me you would never speak to me about anything except the baby ever again, but clearly, that's been flipped.

Why are you doing this when you made it clear you want nothing to do with me? You know how much I love you and would do anything for you, so why do you still pull my heartstrings? I shouldn't care. I don't want to care. I want to be able to ignore your calls, go on with my day, but I simply can't bring myself to that...

I'd do anything for you!

And hence... I'll still be here. No matter how much it hurts me inside, I'll still be here to support you. Y'know.. I feel like Fry's dog from Futurama... Waiting for something that's never going to come back.

As I sit here with our beautiful creation staring up at me, I just smile and cry. I hope whoever you fall in love with can make you happier than I ever did. I hope you get all you deserve, since I see that it was never me.

The world deserves to see you smile.

♡

-The Passing Phase.