I am at a loss. I have lived with my husband for about a year and a half now. Before I moved in, he lived with housemates and they were MESSY, god so messy. The house was in disarray. It was total chaos. Since everyone has moved out, I have slowly taken the house back room by room and gotten rid of most of the clutter that wasn't mine. We just took the final room and moved my computer in here so that I have my own office space if you want to call it that. Cleanest room in the house, by far.

Anyway, my problem is that the house isn't *clean*. It's filthy. God, it's awful. I have chronic mental illnesses so my energy comes and goes in waves, as does my motivation. I know the house is stressing me out and it's feeding into my mental illnesses. Some days I simply can't pick up after myself, and it has gotten bad in the past couple of weeks and I am tired of it. The problem is, now that the house is decluttered, I don't know where to start *cleaning* it. I watched this video by Krist Yu and liked the order she went in, but it just seems like such a big task.

I don't know where to start. Any suggestions? I grew up in what was pretty much a showroom house. It was spotless and smelled of Chlorox at all times. I'm not that clean. But when I lived with my old roommate, our house was clean and presentable at most times. Sure, there were crumbs on the counter and on the floor, but it wasn't bad is my point. My husband's house is unpresentable. It's awful and I want to change it. It's bordering on not being a "safe" environment as KC Davis would put it. But I am tired and overwhelmed. I want to bring in a cleaner, but I worry it's even too far gone for them. I need help! This place feels like a biohazard zone and I feel trapped.

Edit: I should mention that I have never once deep cleaned the house since I have been here, and I am not sure that anyone else ever did in the 6 years my husband has owned it. It's rough. And quite frankly disgusting.