Hey y’all. Having postponed joining this sub to add to my “if I don’t talk about it, it doesn’t exist”-mentality, now I really need some advice or words of encouragement.

Diagnosed in 2019, and didn’t really have that many issues until the last months where I stopped self-medicating with marijuana due to another assessment. Now it’s worse than ever, and I’ve had a constant flair-up since March. I’m so freaking tired.

I feel so deeply ashamed, as I can’t lay off the alcohol or indulge in my favourite foods or snacks. I wanna say “from time to time” but can’t go a day without at least one ingredient that makes me feel bad.

Especially drinking is difficult. I’m an alcoholic, and really need help not losing my social life or general sanity without it.

I think having Asperger’s makes is even trickier when considering the social relief, but every addiction story is about changing a habit that has helped in so many ways for way too long, no matter who you are. TW quitting both alcohol and MJ has sent me through several suicidal spirals, and I feel so small and weak for it.

How did you guys say goodbye to your favourites? Do you ever indulge even a little bit, and have any tips?

I know cigarettes have a weird impact on UC, and even started the habit again to calm my MJ nerves and maybe get some relief. I smoked joints with tobacco, but mostly miss the pain relief and relaxing effects. I’m transferring to a new doctor this august, and is building courage to apply for medical MJ (recreational is illegal here and my former doctor told me word for word to “get it on the street myself”).

Anyone with experience on or off MJ; please share.