Throwaway since I don't want this showing up on anything I'm tied to. I talked to a recruiter yesterday. I was so sure this was what I wanted to do. Nights of research and talking to vets and active duty members. I went in yesterday and it just felt wrong. Like the best way I can put it is I felt like I was forcing myself the same way I was forcing myself to date my ex (who I ended up breaking up with). The recuirter asked me straight up "Do you want to be a Marine" and I said yes to him. But ever since I got home I've just been wondering if I want to. I've definitely asked myself since then the same question and answered no. I don't want to do something I'll regret, either that be leaving now before doing anything and wanting to enlist in the future again. But I also don't want to sign away 4 years. The main reason I was thinking about joining the Marine corp is I haven't been doing much with my life, 21 and only 2/3rd the way to an AA. I want to improve myself and learn better discipline. But just that question has been looming me and making me reconsider.