I dropped out 2 years ago. It was on a whim I felt the world closing in on me I felt an external pressure from my girlfriend seeing as the distance was more difficult than envisioned. I couldn’t make up my mind and I ended up pulling the plug. I regretted the day I moved out of the university apartments and seeing that my withdrawal from the university had been approved turned to be more somber than relieving. I almost went back last year but the shipped sailed by and I didn’t jump on. However, a few months ago I was promoted at work and am on track to continue growing with the company. Mind you this is retail but this company has exciting opportunities beyond the confines of a store. However now that it’s been two years since I dropped out I’ve been began yearning to finish my education. I know it has to happen now I feel ready however I am now faced again with choosing how I want to get my education back on track. Coming back to UCSB still crosses my mind everyday but is it the smartest thing to do? I know I don’t want to make retail my life but would I be dumb to leave my $25/hr job to go back to university? I have been toying with the notion of finishing online through SNHU or CSU Online but a large part of me feels as if I’m still at UCSB because my mind has never truly left. I need to finish what I started and I’m only a few forma away from being back but is it the smartest choice? I’m still with my girl but to be completely honest leaving still haunts me. We’re already not in the greatest place as it is and me leaving would do more bad than good. I’m first gen from an immigrant household and the guilt from walking away after all the sacrifices to provide me with that opportunity, it weighs on me. I just want this torment in my mind to end is it worth taking the leap and going back? :/