My grandma died of cancer recently. I don’t know how I will handle this grief going into UC. It’s my first year of UCSD and I don’t know anyone personally. I miss her so much and it sucks that I have to leave so soon. I’m gonna miss her funeral because SD is far from home. She died not remembering my name. She had dementia, cancer, diabetes, liver issues, and literally everything u can imagine. I would often help with caretaking and I knew in the last couple weeks she was in pain. So I’m glad she is not in pain anymore. I’m glad I was able to say goodbye and she didn’t die when I was away. But right it all hurts so much. Everything hurts and I just want her back.