Well I'll come right out with it, I had sex last night with someone new for the first time in over 8 years.

Now to add some context, I, 34F, went through a divorce from my ex-husband last year and while we were intimate throughout our relationship, it was anything but fulfilling. Fast forward to this year and I've been working to build up my self-confidence again and to also become more comfortable with being sexual too. And that led me to joining some of the dating apps.

Anyway I had a date with this man over the weekend, my first date with anyone since I met my ex-husband, and I felt it went well. Over the next day or two we kept chatting and it led to going for drinks last night, and despite the nerves I was open to it going further if he proposed the idea. Long story short, he asked if I'd like to go back to his after, I said yes, and it all happened from there.

I don't quite know what I'm typing here, I guess I just needed to share it somewhere, but despite a few awkward moments, learning about each others bodies, I just feel so energised that I actually went ahead and did that, that I don't feel worse about myself for doing it and feel reassured that I can be a sexual being again, not just my ex-husband's wife or that divorced woman.

Pardon my rambling but I feel better for sharing that here, I don't have many people in my life I can be honest about these things with so it helps to post here a bare my soul a little bit.