My (girl)friends are always complimenting eachother about their looks, telling eachother how hot, sexy, beautiful they are. They will even say this to other ladies they barely know. They talk about people's appearance a lot (not in a bad way, like they don't criticize people's look, it's mostly compliments) We are all in our late 30s wich I'm not sure how is this relevant here, but it feels relevant to me because I feel I should not care about this at our age.

But the thing that bothers me and I feel so childish for this is that they never say it to me. Like maybe once a year, if I'm especially dolled up for an event like a wedding or whatever. I think it's mostly because I have a very different body type than what they admire, I'm not overweight but I'm curvy and somewhat muscular, while they are all on the thin side and that is important to them.

Most of the time I don't care. My boyfriend tells me I'm beautiful all the time. I know I'm not the hottest chick in town, but I think I'm at least decent, I have (in my opinion) a good sense of style, I have great tits and a great ass, big beautiful eyes, full lips and shiny hair. I am kind, funny, I have an interesting career and hobbies. So it should not matter. I should not care. But today I do :(

End of rant.