I am tired. I would run out of Google storage if I filled the rest of the doc with everything else from the countless other men. It's a near daily occurrence for me to be told, as a pretty prolific female redditor and female mod, that I deserve to be r*ped, cannibalized, decapitated, and killed, over and over and over again by male users. For what? Being a mod. Being a woman. Having an opinion. Having expertise in domestic violence. Having expertise in a subject at all that they don't. Being nice to other women. And even - gasp - taking sexual assault against other men seriously.

Edit: Thanks so much everyone for the extremely kind words and generous support. It means a lot. And yes, I have reported him to the admins - every single time. And blocked his accounts. I've also banned all his accounts from all the subs I mod. Doesn't help when he just makes new ones. By my estimate he's made 40 accounts. They get suspended and he moves on to the next one. There's been a lull lately after he randomly popped up out of the blue, so my fingers are crossed. Ironically, the harassment from this one individual is not anywhere close to the worst of what I've gotten on this website.

And no, to directly address the user who accused me of "sexist generalization," it is not generalization to share my experiences specifically with male users on Reddit, whose genders I am not assuming but who have eagerly shared them with me. I am fully aware that anyone of any gender can be abusive and engage in harassment, or be abused. I am not looking for this to turn into a "not all men" space. My post history makes it very clear I advocate for male survivors as well. If there are any male survivors reading this, there are numerous pinned resources on my profile if you would like. I believe you.

Edit 2: I don't want to create a new Reddit account, for various personal reasons that I shouldn't have to justify to anyone. It's my choice to keep this account. Just want to get that out there. Regardless - trust me when I say I've gotten more harassment from random male redditors than the 25 pages from one of them. Harassment as a woman on reddit doesn't disappear with a new account.

Edit 3: No, I am not going to share my Google Doc with anyone to "prove" that what I'm saying is true. The only people who have asked me to do so via private message are men. Here's another one. And no, the harassment I've faced is not "interesting"" and while it does "show what it's like to be a woman on reddit," this entire sub does. Y'all have the entire internet at your fingertips to see how bad misogyny is on Reddit. Stop asking women to prove their trauma to you. Finally, think I'm "downplaying, exaggerating, or embellishing?" Don't want to "take a random stranger at their word?" Then don't. It costs you nothing to walk away. It costs me possible further harassment, possible doxxing of my location and name, and unnecessary labor to migrate my entire document to some sort of anonymous platform. This isn't a court of law. This is a vent post.

To the men who asked me for the Doc for porn purposes, get off to something else. I owe you nothing. On the flip side, thanks to the kind men who have sent messages of support. It's very appreciated.

Edit 4: TIL that sharing about being stalked and harassed for a year by a man on reddit is "bragging" and a "circle jerk!" Yes, if you act like a creep, I will treat you like one, and I will call you out. You think you're entitled to my personal trauma? Then I'm entitled to highlight your comment for anyone reading this post.

Edit 5: Another lovely exhibit from another entitled male commenter!. I'm just going to go a step further this time, because way too many men on this post and in my DMs think they are owed access to a Google doc of harassment evidence written by a female stranger - if you seriously think you are entitled to a woman's personal inventory of cyber harassment, you need therapy. Women are not your therapists, and we don't have "mental illnesses" simply for disagreeing with you. Some of you 100% would not last a day on Reddit if you were subjected to everything women have to deal with on this site. Get a damn grip.

Want to project the "angry, hysterical, overly emotional woman" stereotype on me? Go right ahead. I am angry, and damn do I have a right to be. Some of y'all can't even offer me the basic decency of not begging me to grant you access to screenshots of me being accused of loving "cum guzzling" and "loving anal gaping" from some massive male creep on this site. Imagine that some of y'all posted about being the recipient of a year-long harassment campaign from a woman on Reddit. Would I be demanding access to your "receipts?" No way in hell. Instead, I'd be sharing the resources list for male abuse survivors that I curated with you because some of us women actually care about survivors of the opposite gender.

I am damn tired of not being granted even a modicum of respect by some men on this site. And before y'all do the "not all men!" thing, re-read and notice the fact that I said "some."

I hope to God I won't be adding "Edit 6" to the end of this sentence tomorrow.