I don't know if it's hormones or simply full coming to accept I have ADHD, and I always have. Fully accepting that it has always made my life harder. On top of an abusive upbringing, and feeling an unending struggle for survival since as long as I can remember.

I'm 28 and feel so exhausted by life. I've got a great job, stable living environment, a loving partner, and I'm in therapy. I've done a lot of personal work, but it feels like too much to maintain it all. Like I'm keeping a hundred plates spinning. And I realize I've never not had to keep them spinning. Since school, and surviving at home, and needing to have mounting pressure to get anything done. Yet knowing if I didn't bad things would follow.

I feel like I never had a childhood, a sense of safety and deep rest. What do I do to truly release? Relax? How can I stop being overwhelmed by the constant pressure and growing responsibility?

Am I even looking at this right? Is it ADHD or am I just desperate for something to blame? Especially when my diagnosis is as inattentive?