Kind of the title. Not really meant to be a vent/rant post, just thought I'd share something i find kinda funny.

Had the realization a week ago while I was sick that 90% of the reason my growth is always stagnant is from my ADHD and me being a huge airhead (like things fly so high over my head I don't feel a breeze level airhead ngl). Like researching content creation is a main hyper fixation i get a lot but putting anything I learn to use? Nahhhh.

Im pretty much limited to only comfortably streaming one day a week due to my limited free time which is fine by me. I finally got back to a place to be able to chill and vibe on stream which I'm cool with. But when I try to "lock in" in order to grow and bit, nope.

Make clips/edited videos out of VODs to post? Can't remember to do so when at my computer/when i have the time (mind you I also started using Sizzle.GG to try and help find moments to clip, but not sure how well it works). Make shorts to post? Brain go brrrrr. Take an hour to come up with tweet ideas to schedule out to get some engagement? Mental blue screen of death coming up with ideas for posts. Make thumbnails for the VODs I upload to YouTube to make them more appealing and help discoverability? Stare at Photoshop for an hour because not a clue what kind to make. Set multiple reminders to do any of this on my phone to help me remember? Stare blankly at the alarm going off until I turn it off, not even realizing why it was going off or registering the reminder.

(Also fyi, incase someone does comment on here about paying someone to help with this stuff, yeah, me got no extra income for that.)

I do enjoy streaming and I'm cool with where I am now. But damn if I don't live up to the username I gave myself. All of the above just makes me laugh because holy shit am I a hot mess.

Anyway, hope everyone well in their streaming adventures!