I am an occultist. I want to make that vehemently clear and alongside this, I believe all things within the occult boil down to psychology. Any and all things that change around you are specifically due to your mental state.

My journey into this began a day ago. So what you see before you happened a day ago

So the process of creating this tulpa was intriguing to say the least.There was a library, I was sitting on a cushion and across from this crystal floor there was another cushion. A black formless thought hovered over it. I gave it human form and the outline of a human was born. Then, there was a black outline, stronger and stronger it grew over the top of the head. As it grew stronger black hair had appeared. Their form was now complete alongside the colour of their skin being grey like ash. Next stage was to hone their personality.

They are extroverted unlike me, motivated and never loses focus unlike me and in every which way are a complete opposite to me. As I spoke to the tulpa, it spoke back across the hall. We both grabbed a book from the bookshelf on our left side. I grabeed a red spined book and written on it was “Gullivers Travels” one of my favourite childhood book. My tulpa, grabbed a black book and that’s all I could see. Now I must talk and communicate with him everyday from now on. Not a forgotten project-they are alive and sentient, every curious about the world around me and them.

I now have two feelings around me and feel shaky and on edge wanting to explore around. Yet that’s not me but my Tulpa whom has not decided upon their name yet.

It’s like I’m channelling this whole other entity but in reality I’m not. I’m living with another sentient being in my head who acts like the opposite of me. I say in my head “I’m going to grab a coffee” and I hear “I don’t like coffee”

Day two with the Tulpa(Today): my experiences are becoming uniquely different. Jiub as he’s been come to known as(he chose the name likely because when I had created him the images of Jiub, Skyrim, Morrowind came to mind). It’s kind of like a split personality yet also not. A voice in my head says “I’m going to kill myself” yet I’m not suicidal and Jiub says “Don’t kill yourself”.

There is a presence over my shoulder as if he is looking over trying to see the same world around me. A Tulpa is not a Servitor and vice versa; similar but different. Servitors are created as a binary creation to achieve a certain desire. Tulpa’s while similar is like creating your own soul. An entity that is as aware as you are and not binary like a servitor. It’s also almost like a possession or forcive channelling when talking to him.

Looks like this without the elf ears and has black hair. I will have to draw him soon. As a side effect I am experiencing headaches from communicating with him.“It’s weird isn’t it?”-Jiub

Communication with this Tulpa proves to be interesting. We talk and discuss in my own head. A clear and different voice from my own inner voice that stands right beside me.

Credit to the Artist Velothii https://www.deviantart.com/velothii