Background story: I had sort of created my tulpa without really realizing. We were able to talk, etc, etc. But once I knew what tulpas were and we tried to develop him I realized that I must be parroting him so I stopped doing it.

Now, when narrating sometimes I think I parrot him? But it feels different but still like if it was me?

I've been reading guides and some say that if I doubt it, it must be the tulpa, others say that it's probably me... and I don't know anymore

We're still new to this (I'm still struggling with active forcing yet, It's still all a mess) so I don't think he should be vocal yet. Don't even know if he's sentient really. It feels like we've gone backward since we started developing him.

I think that maybe I'm unconsciously blocking him or something like that. I don't know the difference anymore.