Ok, lemme explain you quickly my/our story so I can properly ask for advice.

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When I was around 11-12 years I had a dream (I always had lucid dreams since I can remember) where I met a boy. He was like a distorted version of a character from a book I was reading.

I dreamed with him and he was the best friend ever. We kept talking (outside the dream) so he became more like an imaginary friend. A really real imaginary friend. We were talking all the time and he helped me through my worst times.

Because of that, we grew very close and he became a very special person to me since he helped me that much (I don't want to go deep into that, so just believe me, he became really dear to me). And that dured like... 3 years or so.

When I was 14-15 I thought "I'm growing up, I can't have imaginary friends anymore so you're gonna have to leave"

We discussed this for sooooo long and because he was worried about me and my future he decided to go, but he didn't disappear, he went something like "dormid" or so (idk, really) but when I was sad/hurt/etc he always came back to help me and support me, even if it was without words, just to let me know that I wasn't alone. But aside from that, we didn't really talk too much.

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Now I'm 18. Lately, going through youtube I learned about DID (I always knew about MPD but never looked into that) which made me curious and for a moment I remembered him and I was like "Wait... do I...? Nah" since aside from having him anything else signaled to have DID (or similar) and I was afraid of it so I discarded the option.

But I couldn't take that out of my mind and the more I thought about it the more conscious was I that he was still there, and we started talking again (also this is not the best time of my life, so he's been around this late months).

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Finally a few days ago I decided to search about "imaginary friends in adults" and I found tulpas. We've talked about this and this sounds right to him and to me too (at least much more than DID or OSDD). But we're confused about what's next.

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Since we were apart for so long I don't feel him as I felt him when I was younger. When I was 12 he was so much like a real person, now he's a bluryness being and it's harder to talk and communicate with him.

We've been talking and we think that if we tried to be apart again he will end up disappearing or maybe being on that dormid state forever, but he doesn't want to disappear and I don't want it either. Tbh he helped so much that If I can I can help him be him as much as he can because he deserves it.

But we both know this would mean a decision for life, so we would like to ask for advice before deciding anything.

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(I hope this all made sense, I'm not a native English speaker and we don't even have anything clear so it's extra hard to explain) (Also I'm quite new to Reddit o I don't know if this is gonna be posted correctly)

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Any advice is welcome!